Yesterday was the start of a new chapter in my life. I've battled with a phobia (called Emetophobia) for many years and if you're a RA sufferer yourself, you understand that many of the treatments have huge risks of being sick. Because of my phobia I have been completely unable to treat this disease. I've been unable to ease the pain because majority of the pain killers list vomiting as a common side effect. I've been completely paralysed by this phobia to the point of allowing myself to be crippled by this aggressive illness. But enough is enough! Earlier last week I called an extremely inspirational man who specialises in treating emetophobia Called Rob kelly, author of the Thrive Programme. We made an appointment and I eagerly waited for my chance to start curing this phobia.
Mum came with me and we took the train to Cambridge for my first 2 hour session. It was such an amazing appointment. I have already learned so much! I feel for the first time in years that I can cure this phobia once and for all. And I will! I won't go into detail now but it really has already made such a big difference.
It was our first time heading so far out with the wheelchair and I have to say, the train was a nightmare! So completely packed out that mum had to fold my wheelchair up and I had to stand for most of the journey home. It really opened my eyes. I can't go on, living my life in this state. Today I am suffering physically but feeling somewhat amazing emotionally.
It's early days but it's all about the progress at this state.
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